Amateur

A True Story About What Makes a Man

Thomas Page McBee

Amateur by Thomas Page McBee (Hardback ISBN 9781786890979) book cover

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An exploration of modern masculinity by the first transgender man to box at Madison Square Garden

In this ground-breaking new book, Thomas Page McBee, a trans man, trains to fight in a charity match at Madison Square Garden while struggling to untangle the vexed relationship between masculinity and violence.

Through his experience of boxing – learning to get hit, and to hit back; wrestling with the camaraderie of the gym; confronting the betrayals and strength of his own body – McBee examines the weight of male violence, the pervasiveness of gender stereotypes and the limitations of conventional masculinity. A wide-ranging exploration of gender in our society, Amateur is ultimately a story of hope, as McBee traces a way forward: a new masculinity, inside the ring and out of it.

A graceful and uncompromising exploration of living, fighting and healing, in Amateur we gain insight into the stereotypes and shifting realities of masculinity today through the eyes of a new man.


“A blazingly wise and beautiful book”
A.l. Kennedy

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Amateur provocatively describes the ways in which an increasingly fragile patriarchal culture needs to keep men in their place. A quest for self-liberation, this loving and deeply intelligent exploration of contemporary masculinities is essential reading”
Deborah Levy

“Amidst a generational shift bringing to question what exactly defines gender, this book plays like x-ray glasses, examining every oddity one may pretend isn’t apparent”
Jordan Stephens

“Deeply personal and politically vital, a calm and contemplative antidote to male toxicity”
the Skinny

“McBee uses the book as a lens to explore the dark side of masculinity … This account is interspersed with insights from a wide range of commentators and experts. It all adds up to a gripping and fascinating journey”
irish News


Thomas Page McBee

Thomas Page McBee was ‘masculinity expert’ for Vice and the first trans man ever to box at Madison Square Garden. His essays and reportage have appeared in the New York Times, Playboy, Glamour and Salon.
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